So I thought It Was You (the black anonymous)

“Charley, what happened?”
“What do you mean with what happened Dan?”
“I mean, why was there never us?”
“I don’t know. I don’t really know about that. Well, maybe because you and I are not meant for now.”
“If that’s the case, then I fancy what would be our future.”
“Hmmm..I can’t really tell. It’s your fault. You did not wait for me.”
“I’m sorry Charley. You…you just kept me waiting for too long…”
“Do you love her?”
“Yes, I guess so.”
“I see.”
I rose from his side. I never would want him to see tears slowly flowing from my eyes. It’s killing me. God Dan! If you only knew how I fervently pleaded for fate and love to conspire and make things work for both of us.
But you haven’t waited. You…just when I thought you were the one, you suddenly changed your mind.
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“First day of school honey?”
“Mom, you’re acting as if I’m a super newbie.”
“I’m just making sure that your every day in school is as good as the first one.”
My mom, always ever supportive.
“You know what mom? You’re right. I’m gonna make sure of that, okay? But for now, I’m gonna kiss you and hug you goodbye because your little girl is school bound.”
“Mmmwuaahhh. Bye mom.”
“Bye honey. I love you. Hey, don’t forget your promise!”
“My promise?”
“What mom?”
Mom gave me a much defined look of scrutiny.
“Of course, no boyfriends.” I smiled as I begin my track to school.
Charley, this is your second summer in school. Better make the most out of it, or else, your sister’s gonna kill you. She did not shell out cash for you to just squander. So focus. Stay focused.
“Uhh…room 416.” I carefully read the label of the room to prevent me from making mistakes, which I frequent, every beginning of the semester.
“This might be it. I’m here.” I said to myself.
I gradually inserted myself to the back seat of the classroom.
“Found you! Just the perfect seat and the right place for me. This is so gonna do me good.”
“Really? I thought so.” A voice suddenly came out and made me lift my gaze.
“Hi. I am Dan and that miss, is my chair.”
I sketched a smile on my face, stood up, looked straight into his eyes and whispered…
“Ooops…you forgot to write your name on it.”
I sat back.
“If you want, you can take the chair beside me. That is, if you can stand me. And oh, by the way, I’m Charley.”
“What a chic name.” he said laughing aloud.
“Blimey! Take it from someone whose name’s so masculine but it doesn’t even show in the face.” I gave out a heated look.
“You know what, I think you’re cool.
I mean cool as in cool girl.”
“Well, my mom must’ve ditched me in Iceland when I was born.”
He laughed.
“I’m starting to like you.”
He gave me the sweetest smile that I’ve ever seen. I unexpectedly blushed.
Our eyes met as if celebrating a beginning. But to what? That, we still have to know.

The couple of days and months that proceeded went lively and lovely for us. We always set off home together and I take pleasure in his company very much. I’m feeling nice and easy every time I am with him. Dan, he suddenly smiles at me when I believe I’m losing everything. Then, the world becomes perfect all over again. He looks me in the eye as if taking leisure in every second of our lifetime. He holds me close when I feel like giving up and the warmth he gives every time he comforts me is like a place I would never want to get out. Nevertheless, I am so much scared of a feeling that is about to grow. What would it be if he falls in love with me? What would I do if I fall in love with him? Oh God. Help me.
I took a deep breath to calm my racing heart.
Until my phone rang that made it race again.
“DAN CALLING…”It read.
I slowly hit the answer button.
“Hee..hello?”
“Hi Charley.”
“Hi Dan. What’s with the call?”
“I uhm…I think I might have to tell you something. Are you free tomorrow?”
“What are you gonna say? Why do we have to wait for tomorrow?”
“…so that it would be special.”
“Do you think you could come?”
I can feel his genuineness as he uttered those words.
“Let’s see.”
“I’ll wait for you at the beach, at our favorite spot. 10:00 a.m. You remember, right?”
“Yeah. I guess.”
I ended the call instantaneously. A lot of outlandish emotions came rushing through the fibers of my heart. I couldn’t ponder.
“What is he doing?” I tried to ask myself.
I had the thought in my mind until came the next day.
“Honey, Charley! It’s time to wake up!”
Mom’s voice awakened the hell out of me.
“Yeah right. It’s morning. You bastard! You’ve been in my mind the whole night and you’re still not wearing off until now. You’re punishing me.
“Honey! Come on down now.”
“Yes. I’ll be there in a bit mom.”
I moved myself towards the door and headed to the kitchen.
“Honey. What’s wrong with you? How could you have slept for too long?”
“Why what time is it?” I asked, confused.
“It’s 2:00 p.m. And oh by the way, someone called. I think he said his name is Dan. Daniel, is it?”
“I told him you were out. I thought you went out early for some school project you know until your sister here told me you were still asleep. I’m sorry for that honey.”
The scenario left me static and wordless.
Everything went pitch black to me. That idiot, he wasn’t joking when he told me he’d wait.
I tried to remember the place he mentioned.
“…10:00 a.m. at the beach,at our favorite spot.”
I raced to the door and started the car. It went screeching until I reached the place.
My heart suddenly started talking. You’re so stupid Charley. You are way too stupid. I tried to search for any trace of Dan. But all I found was a bouquet of red roses with a letter on the rubbish that bore:

TO MY CHARLEY:
You have the sweetest name in the world. Seeing you everyday is like paradise to me. But I wish further that I could see heaven and I think there is no other way to realize this than to make you mine.
I love you a lot and you make me love you more each day that passes.
Love,
DAN

Tears raced down my cheeks. Damn it Charley! You’ve lost it. What now?

The next day, I did not see Dan anymore.

To be continued…